Last updated on October 8th, 2019 at 01:04 pm
Well, it happened again! I woke up Monday morning with the realization that I was doing it once again. And to be quite honest, I was rather frustrated with myself.
What is it? That thing I keep doing? Let me tell you. I keep letting what other people think (or what I think other people think) affect my decision-making process.
I am going to be very open to you right now. I am the type of person who hates to hurt someone’s feelings, even if I do not mind disliking people or making them angry with me.
It makes me very uncomfortable if I think I have hurt them in any way. This has worked against me for many years.
In school, if I did really well on an assignment, I would not let my friends know because (in my mind at least) it might hurt their feelings.
I gave up activities that were really important to me because someone else wanted to do them instead.
Even in the job world, I have passed up promotions or certain jobs because I did not want to offend a friend.
Thankfully, my thirteen years in the military did help cure me of most of this hindrance. However, sometimes it is difficult to overcome a lifetime habit.
So, here I am waking up on Monday morning and realizing that with the blog I was trying to write I was doing it again.
The website/blog that I had originally intended to build/write was to be about my life as a first-time-mom at 39 and the fun of having a toddler.
I wanted to write about having two grown step-daughters and two step-grandchildren who are older than my own son. About what it is like to get married for the first time at 36 and become an instant mom/grandma and all the struggles that go along with that.
Because of my habit, here I was trying to create a website/blog about cleaning and organizing your home. Basically, doing it again.
Don’t get me wrong. I am good at cleaning and organizing.
However, that is not my passion and so I was not getting very far. Sure, I am including a section about cleaning/organizing the home. After all, that is a big part of my life with a toddler. But I want this blog to be so much more!
One of my very close friends gave me a necklace charm that says, “Living your dream is something you can do; just always remember to yourself be true! Choose your own path and off you’ll go; believe in your dreams they’re possible, you know!” (Ganz)
So here we are. Starting over fresh. Writing about what is important to me because I need to choose my own path and be true to myself.
I want to hear from you! Anyone else ever let what other’s think or feel influence your dreams? How have you chosen your own path?